Well fingers crossed.
The last time I felt this settled and optimistic was 4 years ago. It feels like a lifetime.
I remember looking around my world and feeling so grateful for everything. I was on track for my ideal life. Within a year it felt like it had all fallen down around me. It took me nearly three years to even begin to understand what a different type of life could look like.
Why am I feeling elated?
- We’ve been making good environmental choices
- Eating less meat, using a programmable thermostat, cutting down on our waste
- We’re organized
- Like I get up at 6, have tea with Bunny, make us a healthy breakfast and get to work on time organized! It’s crazy and I’m loving being that woman.
- In spite of our crazy schedules ML and I have managed to feed ourselves real food vs. foodstuff fairly consistently and keep our house in shape so we’re comfortable if someone wants to pop by
- We’re doing things we love
- ML is working on a passion project and I’m sitting on a host of committees that make me feel good. I’m also beginning to realize a childhood dream.
- I’m also taking part in Nanowrimo which has been a dream for quite some time
- I’m this fantastic creature that I hoped but never dreamed I could be:
- a blogger
- a consistent cook
- purposely embracing healthy eating (I made my own granola!)
- have a good relationship with my family
- in a job I like with people I adore
- I freeze food and actually use it
Basically I’ve become That Woman , or my version of her.
Down side: I’m exhausted. I keep putting pressure on myself to not only keep it up but exceed. Sure my home is tidy but is it clean, can you eat off my floors? Well no but really you shouldn’t be eating off floors to begin with.
So my lessons are:
- As long as being this person is fun keep doing it
- Small steps have been the key to my success! I need to keep this in mind and forgive myself if I don’t move as quickly as I want
- When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes (yep quoting Ed Sheeran), I need to love myself and recognize that I’m always doing the best I can.
What advice would you give yourself for tough times?