I’ve gone back and forth in acknowledging this day, well yesterday. A year ago yesterday my world got very scary and very small.
i celebrated this personal milestone by indulging in things that had been lost to me as well as by acknowledging things I gained.
The concussion taught that I can still get things done even if I take my time so I did some of the things I had begun doing due to the concussion:
- Tidied my home before work
- Ate breakfast while listening to a book on tape
- Allowed myself screen free tasks at work
- Took small breaks to excercise my eyes
- Opted to walk to meetings
- Didn’t have lunch at my desk
- Used lists to breakdown tasks, especially ones that felt overwhelming
I also indulged in a few things that for a while were impossible:
- Drove to a friend’s house after work
- Watched trashy TV with above friend
- Had wine
- Ate chocolates
- drank a second cup of coffee
- Read a book on lunch and before bed
It’s interesting that all half of the indulgent things are really just that. They’re items that may make me feel good in the moment but they’re not necessarily helping me lead a fuller life.
I struggle a bit as I’m not sure what can be attributed to the concussion, getting older, or not taking good care of my mental health.
Some examples are:
- My inability to function the next day if I stay out/up past 9pm
- Lack of ability to truly binge watch shows
- Desire to have less lights on
- Inability to be appropriately angry (almost anything can upset me)
For the rest of this month I’m going to try to re-implement my concussion learnings and focus on being present and enjoying my own life.